Anger

Running old software

I got angry today. I was angry because I felt that a neighbor should have given me the right of way on our narrow road. I flipped him off, he flipped me off. I guess we are now even.

Much later, I started to think about why I had gotten mad. The premise is that there is a reason and a lesson in everything. The software version that I had lived under for the longest time was, that everything was even. You get back what you put in. The world generally doesn’t work that way, and this caused a lot of my anger issues. I saw promotions going to people who were not the best. I saw a system that was rigid. Then causing another of my problems, not wanting to play the game in a rigid system. I ultimately worked through that system by just doing more. More that couldn’t be ignored.

The not fair subroutine had kicked in for some reason today; I had hoped I had deleted it. For some other unknown reason, it decided today to test if the world had upgraded its software. It hadn’t. To make a difference, we don’t get to just go halfway. We have to be more tolerant because of those who have no tolerance. We have to love more because of those who can’t love themselves, or who love no one other than themselves. We have to be more courteous for those that have no courtesy. There are no rules or laws on how to be a better human. There really isn’t even a training program. Mostly, we have to try and figure it out the best we can. Doing the more part is how change happens. Only doing so much and not any more than the other guy is doing, leads to stagnation. A lesson that I apparently need to be reminded of today.

Peace and Love